I am plodding along, the girls and I have just had quite the dog park experience, where about 30 doggies and their mums and dads congregate each afternoon, everyone knew the name of and also the characteristics of everyone elses doggy. It was quite sweet really, everyone together for the same reason, it made me smile.
I need more smiling moments in my life, moments that make all the hard work worth it.
I am just like a child I need reassurance and praise.
Time is getting to me, patience is not something I possess as I have said before, so I am at that time where this weight loss venture is getting to me, the mind games have started. I eat very well and I very rarely miss a training session, but I think the result might be lacking as I am training alone, reaching my max effort is really difficult on my own.
Time to find myself a gym buddy once we are all settled into the new house.
Time is part of life I understand this but I believe that time is the HARDEST part of life that we have to accept, time heals most things. Time is needed for everything to fix itself. In time I will be free of the people that are draining the life from me, In time I will have a lean body, in time I will learn to love each moment for what it is.
And that is my biggest hurdle that I am facing now, In time my husband will be home, in time my daughters will be off to school 5 days a week, I will miss them, but in that time I will be free to do whatever I like with my time.
Time Is
Too slow for those who wait,
Too swift for those who fear,
Too long for those who grieve,
Too short for those who rejoice,
But for those who love,
Time is eternity.
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Somethings been bothering me the past week, I am not sure exactly what it is but I think Its the part of me that needs more adult company, I need more stimulation in life. I feel like I always need to be on the move, and with a mind to match. I am always inspired with ideas and constantly need someone to relate to, to talk to, and to connect with.
I am always jumping from here to there in a never-ending search for new experiences and discoveries of all kinds. At times this need for continual movement can cause the me to lose direction and, it can become more important and override the actual purpose for a journey.
I am becoming increasingly more discriminating as I mature, I am not sure how to go about this, should I learn to accept, I dont know if I like this, or is it just that noone likes to accept that I may have changed, grown and now have an opinion and my own set of views on life.
I think by nature I will endeavour to remain an adolescent as long as possible, I thrive on, and love the many faces and the many small adventures that I face along my way. And at the moment all these parts of me are being crushed and smothered by my boring plateau in life.... I have been so busy with the small things in life, that I tend to get frustrated and forget to slow down and enjoy it all.
I have so much I feel I want to do, but it just never happens fast enough.
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Its taken me two days to write this blog so for now I am going to post it and I might be able to progress later.
over.and.out
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