Four Seasons

The hardest challenge in life besides our own personal struggle, is the struggle of dealing with others.

I have an affirmation on My fridge that I go to whenever I am feeling frustrated with something or someone. Especially if it is a situation that I cannot change.

No person or event upsets my mind, it is only my inability to tolerate them which makes me annoyed. Therefore with a high state of tolerance no person or adverse situation will annoy me as I have the power to change myself.

So if we have an inability to tolerate, it can be due to unrealistic expectations that we are holding onto, for so long I have been so angry and frustrated so quickly. My expectations have been too high in the wrong areas.
By taking control of my mind I can also then take control of my life.

You can take control of your mind by ordering it to have positive thoughts, and to keep determinedly thinking thoughts.

While in a pretty sad place I was pointed in the direction of  "The law of attraction". I have learnt so much about myself through reading the book that Jerry and Esther Hicks wrote, "Ask and It is given".

I have always thought I was pretty aware of these things. That if you are unwilling to change your negative attitude then your life is never going to change. Nothing happens by luck, you create everything that comes your way.

If ever I am lost and need some reassurance, My most treasured book, Shambhala: The Sacred Path of the Warrior. Enlightening in itself.
I often pick this book up and flip to a random page it always seems to have a way of being exactly what I needed to remember at that particular moment.

Hope and Fear cannot alter the seasons.

The four seasons occur free from anyone’s demand or vote. The natural law and order of this world is not “for” or “against” you. There is a natural law and order that allows you to survive, which is basically good. We often take for granted or reject this basic law and order in the universe, but we should think twice. We should appreciate what we have. We should feel that it is wonderful to be in this world.

 

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Today has been tough, The sun was shining so brightly today, it was beautiful and warm, I so wanted to soak it up... But I couldn't, I was tired, and withdrawn from the beauty of the days radiance.

In our house it was a solemn sense of loss, like a wilted flower, the colourless rainbow.... the wounds are still raw, our eldest daughter is just pining for her daddy. She was distracted with hunger at the airport but once she realised he was gone, and he wasn't coming back for some time, it was tears of complete despair. My heart aches, for her, and for myself. So we took to the blankets after lunch and had The Nana nap that I so wished for yesterday, on a sunny winters day. We where all feeling each others pain. We slept for 3 hours.

Back to the loneliness of making dinner for two wee ones that are so dependent, yet so unappreciative. I know this is just a child's trait, but the only way I will get a standing ovation around here without hubby is if its free meal every night, their choice. Garlic bread and macaroni cheese for 2 months it would be.

I think I might have a night off tonight and just sip tea and feel sorry for myself, and Get up at the crack of dawn, exercise, shower, and beautify, hopefully all before the Girls are up. *crosses fingers* This is my ultimate goal!

Over and out for tonight I am going to go for a bath with the little fairies, its a bit cold for limited accessory dress ups at the moment. They should be playing Eskimos instead!

xxx