Reading, sooths my anxiety about things that I cannot change. Even if it is a simple affirmation, a positive quote, or a chapter in a book about keeping the mind positive.
I have found a lot of enjoyment in reading of late, writing and creating. I find that if I come back and read over what I have written here, it helps me reevaluate the situation at hand. Or the way I was feeling at the time, and if I have found a solution.
My recent writings about the enjoyment of children was probably the most passionate I have been yet, and as much as it might seem that I think I am wonderful mother with no faults, this is far from he truth, I get angry, I yell, I curse and I get extremely upset. I have a bit of a problem with how quick I am to react without thinking. In saying that I am also very conscious of the way I react to things, I almost instantly feel a massive ray of heat come over me, lets call it a guilt wave. Because I know, that I have reacted in a rather appalling manner.
I think if you are at least conscious of the way you act, then you can try your hardest to make things right next time the situation arises. Which in the case of children, is usually more than once a day.
The main reason I am writing about this today is because I am feeling guilty for the way I acted last night when all i wanted to do was go to bed, and the girls where getting out of bed every 5 minutes and I still hadn't done my workout, my rest day was Saturday, and I really don't want to get off track so soon.
I must remember #1 My Children come first
As I write this I have heard a news update on the television, 3 more Australian Soldiers have died in Afghanistan, so that is a total of 5 in the past fortnight, 2 are severely injured. My heart breaks as this is so close to my heart.
Lest we forget those who have given their lives for our freedom, for our quality of life. These Men are Sons, Brothers, Fathers, Grandsons, Best mates....~~~HEROES~~
“Appreciation can make a day, even change a life. Your willingness to put it into words is all that is necessary.” -Margaret Cousins
The people who run around making absolutely no effort to make their, or the people around them have a beautiful experience here on earth.. The ones who deliberately run around purposely hurting others. Should take a long hard look at themselves. Take a moment to realise the reason they have the FREEDOM to be such arse holes, to have such skewed perceptions of what is right and wrong, to have their priorities so wrong.
I would never ever want to hurt any with malicious intent. What the fuck provokes these people, to be so god dam materialistic. So selfrighteous.
My heart is so full of sadness, that these mothers, fathers, grandmothers grandfathers, wives, children, best mates, have just lost someone so dear to them, they have given a huge part of themselves for our freedom.... their lives will never be the same, and there are so many oxygen thieves out there who have absolutely no gratification for any of it.
"He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has." - Epictetus
So many are anti-war, but do they have any idea that, the reason they are entitled to an opinion, is because of these Men and Woman who gave their lives. Do they really have any idea!?
They went with songs to the battle, they were young.
Straight of limb, true of eyes, steady and aglow.
They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted,
They fell with their faces to the foe.
They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning,
We will remember them.
As I tuck my children in on my way to bed tonight, I will thank these men and woman, for that we are safe, and without a doubt some of the luckiest people on Earth.
Lest we forget. RIP. I am forever grateful.
"Life without thankfulness is devoid of love and passion. Hope without thankfulness is lacking in fine perception. Faith without thankfulness lacks strength and fortitude. Every virtue divorced from thankfulness is maimed and limps along the spiritual road." -John Henry Jowett
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